Beauty Standards.

It has been months since I've written anything. But I just felt the need to rant about how I've felt since coming back home to South East Asia.

For those who've been reading my blogs would know that I've been away from home in Europe for my studies. After 9 months I come back home for the summer. And during this summer, I've gained a lot of weight. 4kg - 5kgs to be exact. I used to be 58kg and now I'm either 62kg or 63kg.

The thing is, people in Asia have a different kind of view of what beautiful is compared to western countries... In Asia, the term beautiful is used for those who are extremely skinny, with no curves, an almond shaped face and straight long black hair. Being an asian myself with most of my family members in Asia, family members and friends tend to be very judgemental about my weight. Giving comments like wow, when you go swimming I can see those fat thighs of yours. Or even, why are you wearing those pants when you're thighs are so big? AND, OMG you've gone out of shape. I have a huge ego. And these comments are just really hurtful and got to me.

Unlike in Asia, Westerners are fine with all shapes and sizes. My aunt who has been in Europe for a long time told me that 'it's alright. Just let them have their say. What's wrong with a little curve? But if you really wanna lose weight, just control your diet and drink lots of water.' I've always been a very sensitive person, but when she said that, I was touched. Even though I wasn't very close to her, her words were so comforting after hearing all the irks from people closest to me. I can't tell you that I don't give a damn about what people say because I do.

Therefore, this post is gonna be my starting point to my goal weight at 52kg.

07.08.14 - 62kg

That's all for now. xoxo.

Beauty ?.?

Hi readers, 

It has been an extremely long time since I've blogged. Forgive me, I've been lazy. Oopsss. hahahaha. BUSY!!!! Assignments every week is no fun at all. But I've handed in mine for now, and I'm freeeee. YAAAYYY!!

Anyways, want to know what I've been so determined to do lately? Losing weight!!!! Though not much of a success there. I can't seem to stop eating junk. For example, see the picture below?? I swear I can finish them in a day. Though it say digestives, it doesn't help you digest at all. It just makes you fat. That's all it does.One packet is almost 2000 calories. And I ate 2 at once. NICEEEEEE. BUT IT'S SO GOOD THOUGH. The chocolate and the biscuit just works so well together. Other brands can't compare. Oh god. I'm making myself want to get more. T.T 

Buy 2 for the price of 1. Damn it.

To compensate for all the nonsense I've eaten, I've been going to the gym everyday now. I try to attend at least 2 classes a day. But when I don't have the time, I go for a short 30 minute run. To feel like I've at least done something. Hope it all turn out well before I go back to Malaysia. MY GOAL! To lose 5-10 kgs.

I'm not obese or anything. No. But the society today just expects perfect looking girls to have long and slim legs and arms, a flat tummy while having boobs and a butt. That's what has been injected into this generations' mind. And that's my image of a perfect body. I want slim thighs, a flat tummy, long slim arms and boobs and a nice butt. Not really like a Victoria Secret model because I know that's *sings*  IMPOSSIBLE~~~~. I'm only 5' 2''. I know. Short. 

I'm not gonna lie to you and say beauty is only skin deep. That's a very deep saying. I know a lot of people say that but how many actually believe that's true? The first thing people see is your appearance, judge, then only decide whether to get to know you or not. Sadly, that's how it works. 

But on the bright side, THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS 'I CAN'T DO IT, BECAUSE IT'S GENETICS', only LAZY people say that. If you want a great body, work hard for it. At least try. When you see the difference, it's all worth it.

These aren't my body... HAHAHAH!!! How I wish though.

Till next time! xoxo